i am not sure why i am wasting 5 minutes writing this crap about my work and how i am pretty much fed up with where i am in my life right now. i just feel like this is the only way to expose the slight uneasiness running inside me.
i sit on my desk staring at the countless emails i receive -- it happens every night -- everyday. the job is sometimes good but sometimes bothering. compared to other jobs where you'd have to stand up all day or invest saliva, my job is better! it really is! i get to choose what i want to do with the time given to me. but i feel that this is really not what i want and this is not really what i should be doing.
i've always wanted to become a music photographer or an artist ever since i was young. but it's not that easy to be what you want to be especially when you've got a scratched up tag hanging at your back -- if you know what i mean.
when you open your eyes to reality -- the dream ends just before it could begin.
so what i want to do right now is keep my feelings steady and try to run the wheel with my own hands before life gets me to nowhere.
i don't know where to start. but i know i've got to start somewhere -- there has to be a place out there that i could start over.
so help me God.
